Category Archives: Support

A Woman Living With HIV

My name is Pattie and I am living with HIV since 1992. It’s not easy living with this disease,  but you can live a pretty normal life if you want it. You have to work at it. You have to be your own advocate -no one will lead the way for you. I think the more you worry about the disease- it the harder it will be for you. Try to live a normal life and make sure you take your meds every day -at the same time everyday -no matter what. There were many times in my past that I would party all weekend and didn’t eat- but I still took my meds at the same time and that is one reason I believe I am still living today.

 “Your tracks will never end as long as you go to meetings and make friends.”

The support groups really helped me to understand what my body is going through. You are not alone -there are a lot of women living with HIV. You have got to have the will to live when things start to go wrong with your body. My friends from the groups, that I go to, really help me in life- where to get help with any problems that I have. Talk to people in your situation who are HIV positive.

For the first 20 years when my husband and I were diagnosed, we didn’t tell anyone. So all of those years we never talked about it unless there was an article in the paper or we had a doctors appointment. I didn’t know anything about HIV- only that it kills you. When the word HIV or AIDS came up I would freak out and leave the room and conversation because it wasn’t good things -it was always bad things people said. All the people were so uninformed- it used to get me so mad. They always talked down about people living with HIV. Some doctors didn’t even want to touch me or take care of me- they looked at me like I had leprosy. But when I found out about the support group on HIV, I was the first one there. I wanted to know and learn about everything that went along with the disease.

I still have a lot of life in me and many good, good friends that have helped me get to this point in my life. I am Happy and most of all UNDETECTABLE of this disease because I always took my meds every day at the same TIME.    “Your tracks will never end as long as you go to meetings and make friends.”

 

Caring For An Adult Daughter

 

It’s a hard job being a caregiver for an adult child. Sometimes it’s harder than when she was a little girl.

My daughter suffers from “Sickle Cell Disease” and had a severe stroke when she was only 20. Before that she was a college student and very independent. Her stroke made her almost helpless. Thankfully she survived and grows stronger everyday.

I had to take charge of her care at home. I learned her medicine schedules, side effects, when to re-order her meds and pick them up. I cook her meals at her scheduled times and what doesn’t interfere with her meds. I also cook what she likes and I have to refuse some sweets and snacks that are bad for her.

I have to follow her doctor’s orders, keep her appointments, and schedule around my own doctor requirements.

She receives some outside help with a caregiver aid however I am still her main caregiver and support. I bathe her and take care of her personal needs and put her to bed.

My social life is almost non-existent but I try to get some much needed time for myself.

My charity program is a time away and I attend my support groups when I can.

My own health is not good but I push forward for the needs of my daughter.

That is what it means to be a Mother. I always answer to “Mommee, Mommee”.

 

Supportive When You’re Not Feeling It!

How can we be supportive/inspirational to other family and friends when we feel so…. lost ourselves?

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I have never been a what I call the “in your face type” with “things are wonderful and just smile”.  I am a realist and like to face obstacles head on with truth.  I can be supportive when someone is down and needs immediate support but I wonder later was that the right approach.

I am not a “Debbie Downer” but I believe in telling the truth when someone needs it. Some of the fake support others dish out doesn’t faze me nor does it help in the long run.

Facts, not fairy tales, I guess is what I believe is best. I know, I know “some” can’t handle the facts but I feel they need truth and facts head on to ditch the fairy tales.

How does everyone feel about that or how do you give support for the doom presently approaching us?

 

 

 

Conquering Your Inner Enemy

We all feel at timpics-for-natalie-blog-2es that we are defeated by our past mistakes or past experiences, but we have to believe that we are overcomers! And, no matter what happens and comes our way we will defeat it.

  • These are some things that help me to overcome my inner enemy.
    Changing my mind to what can go right instead of wrong

    1. If I am thinking that am going to fail at something, I tell myself I will pass.
    2. Expecting the best will happen when my family and I get together.
    3. He or she will accept me, as I am, when I tell them my diagnosis, and if not, it is not the end of the world, there is more life to live. They’re missing out, not me, I understand that rejection is God’s protection.
  • Using affirmation:
    1. My self-esteem is high because I honor who I am.
    2. I am grateful for my healthy body. I love life.
    3. As I forgive myself, it becomes easier to forgive others.
                                      – Louise Hay  
  • Affirmation:
    1. I am beautiful.
    2. I will succeed
  • Using humor and fun around someone that makes me happy.
    1. Laughing
    2. Skating
    3. Shopping
    4. Going out to eat.
    5. Fishing

Remind myself that the negative thought that I’m thinking is only negative; it has no power other than what I give it. When I give it power, it controls my destiny.

Watch your thoughts, they become words.
Watch your words, they become actions.
Watch your actions, they become habits.
Watch your habits, they become your character.
Watch your character, it becomes your destiny.
                                                              -Lao Tzu

I surround myself with positive people, who are headed in the same direction as me, or who are already there. Don’t be afraid to jump into something new, live outside your comfort zone. Enjoy life!

Ways That Help Me To Be Free From My Inner Enemy

confidence-wordsI battle with low self-esteem because of things I have been through in my life, or things that have been spoken or done to me.

I never knew how to break free from it, I always felt less than anybody around me because of the way I looked or how I spoke and all I wanted was to feel love. I was finding love in the wrong places or things. I was looking for a way out, wanting to know how to escape everything within me and learning how to love me.

These are ways that help me to be free:

  • Taking responsibility for my own life and decisions, which can be hard at times, but I have to do it.
  • Forgive, which is a choice, not a feeling. Never give a person or something so much power over me that I choose not to forgive.
  • I no longer rely on someone else’s validation to feel good about myself. When I started taking responsibility for myself, it began to build my self-esteem and stability within and gave me hope. I started feeling good about myself.
  • Self-esteem problems can damage many important parts in my life, like relationships, ambitions, achievements, and health when playing the victim role.

I never want to be powerless and helpless another day in my life. I lost many years of my life by being powerless and helpless. I was giving someone else command over me, and allowing them to have control of my responsibilities and relinquishing my God given power and will.

I replace a negative with a positive by:

Changing my mind to what can go right instead of wrong. I learned the mind can only think one thought at a time.

  1. Using affirmation.
  2. Using humor and fun or being around someone that makes me happy.
  3. Reminding myself that the negative thought that I’m thinking is only negative, it has no power other than what I give it.

Most of all fall in love with me!

 

 

 

The Secret of HIV

 I was watching The View when I heard Cookie Johnson say when her husband ”Magic Johnson” confessed that he was HIV she had to make a choice. Her choice was to leave and let him die or stay and help him live!

why-love-is-a-good-drug-for-mind-and-body-ftrShe said how hard it was for her when he had to close himself in a room and call all the women he had, had sex with over the past 10 years. I heard her say this and I thought “This is my story in reverse.”

I’m the infected spouse and my husband decided to stay and help me live. He stood by while I had to talk to the health department and disclose my sexual contacts. He wasn’t literally in the room but he knew I was online and on the phone giving names and contacting those I may have exposed or who may have exposed me to HIV. He chose to stay and in the early days or months he probably thought I wasn’t going to be in his life and our children for much longer. He chose to stay and help me fight this disease. He was tested within hours of my diagnosis and tested negative. I thank God for that. He chose to care for me when I couldn’t get out of bed. He drove me to every appointment to sign up for care, for medicines, and everything connected to infectious disease. He keeps me on schedule and checks for any new side effects or symptoms. He drives me to the hospital when I have to go and stays until I force him to go home and rest. I wouldn’t say he’s a Saint but he’s pretty darn close to it.

We still argue as many couples do that have spent so many years together. They are not big fights more of disagreements because we don’t agree on a lot some days. One thing I guess we do agree on and that is that it’s better staying together than being apart. And alone.

I love this man whom I decided to marry so many years ago and will try to make up for the terrible choices I made in a bad time in my life. If he asks something of me I can not refuse and part of that request is keeping my status private from most of our life. Secrets are hard for me and lies are a close second.

Now in our later years we care for one another. I guess the part of the marriage ceremony fits here. “In sickness and in health” We are the elderly couple sitting together on the park bench or walking on the beach. We may not be always holding hands but we will be very close together.

 

 

Strengthen Your Future, Give Your Past Away

There are many things that we can do to make our future better and one of them is giving our past away.  Our past has so many bad things that weigh our lives down and it could make us sick.  So, we begin little by little, on trying to make our future stronger by giving away the past and all of the things that come with it. The things that are in our past may consist of many things, such as, work, school, sports that we may play, children, and relationships.  I know what you are saying, “Why give away all the things that make us happy?”

We don’t give away the memories, we give away the bad habits, and the bad thoughts that may have come to our mind throughout the day, not to mention that we woke up on the wrong side of the bed. Maybe, the toast is a little over cooked. These are just a few things that come to mind. This stuff needs to be let go or given away through your Power Greater than Ourselves, our journal, parents or maybe friends.

As we talk about the little things, some which are listed, these things start to leave our minds, body and our souls and makes us smile, and enjoy our days. This is a necessity because it is essential that we lighten our load by letting go of the past.

To have a strong future, I have given you a few things that will help to strengthen yourself, your future and the thoughts that may come to your mind. If we give away the dirt, we can’t help but feel cleaner.

What is keeping life so bogged down for you?

Once letting go, you must leave it there.

What is your reason?

 

 

 

 

 

The Fear of Attending a Support Group

Doorways Through IPemmy ElderSupport groups are everywhere. There are support groups for drinking, sex, gambling, health issues, etc. Having a problem that requires a support group is hard enough but then you add the fear of attending that first meeting. You don’t really know anybody, but you do know that they all have the same problem going on that you do and that’s a comfort. A million thoughts are running through your head when attending the first meeting. Will I have to speak? Am I being judged? How will this help me?

Most support groups are non­judgemental and a safe zone where you can share your thoughts and feelings with people who understand what you’re going through. Being the newest member of anything is always hard, but being part of something that is helping you better, or get through your life is the best.

I was a new member of a support group about three or four years ago and I was terrified. I didn’t know anybody and was hesitant about people finding out about my status. The ladies of that first group were wonderful, though, and made me feel very welcome. Now it’s years later and this group has become such an integral and important part of my life. I love every single person so much and I can’t imagine how I would get through life without their support.

Support groups are there to help us and most of the time they end up being our biggest supporter. I encourage everybody to try one.

The Reality & Resilience of the Woman

Book Frt CoverRealistically speaking I believe that until you see and stand up for your worth you will not fulfill the plan God has for you. Unawareness of your worth can cause you to miss out on opportunities for growth and development, even having no vision for your future and wasting your energy on the minuscule things in life can fester into bigger issues within, that too can keep you from your promise.

What is your reality? Are you honestly ready to walk away from a situation that is causing you more harm than good by having the strength to pray and gracefully excuse yourself from the foolishness? Do you feel resilient enough to fail, get back up, re-invent yourself and commit to God and yourself that you will be greater than before?

The reality and resiliency of the woman is seeking God’s freedom for her life. That means knowing who you are and whose you are. In order to seek out freedom though, you have to go through some tough times. You will conquer some trials and tribulations and if you can still walk to a mirror right now and look at yourself with the open wounds, and flaws and brokenness, I still need you to know, woman, that you are greatness.

The reality and resiliency of the woman is to look at her truth. Stop stressing yourself out and stop worrying about what folks think. Your truth may be ugly and messy and full of drama or your truth may be beautiful and full of positivity. We all have to look at our truths and evaluate where we want to be in life in order to build our resiliency as a woman. Sister, you must choose everyday to put both of your feet in front of the other and walk forward without letting your truths (good, bad, or ugly) define your future.

The reality and resiliency of the woman is speaking to her inner woman. If you have to wake up every morning and persuade yourself that you are worth more, then do it! You deserve the best in life and nothing or no one will keep you from it. Your destiny is too important for you to sleep on. Your destiny is much too powerful for you to wait on anyone or anything other but God. Your destiny is your personalized purpose from God materialized. You can live it, breath it, touch it, and feel confident in knowing that the reality and resiliency of the woman has been instilled in us by God.

Once you know who you are in Christ Jesus, get ready because everything will change for you! What used to look and act real is now showing its true face of being a distraction and your reality begins to look a lot brighter, limitless, and full of potential all because you sought and acknowledged God, trusting His will and his reality for you.

WOMAN KNOW THIS, “WE AS WOMEN CARE ABOUT EXCELLENCE! WE EXUDE SELF-LOVE AND SELF-CONFIDENCE. WE ARE STRENGTH MANIFESTED! WE ARE WOMEN OF GOD AND THROUGH OUR RESILIENCE WE WILL LIVE OUR TRUTH EVERYDAY!”

“NOW GO AND BE GREAT!”

Excerpt taken from The Greatness Devotional by Natishia Y. June

Natishia Y. June is an author, social justice advocate, and speaker; however her best title to date is that of wife and mother!

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Natishia Y. June is a National speaker, rebel for Christ, advocate and published author. Natishia has written numerous articles on everything from social justice and Christian devotionals all the way down to fashion. Her true passion is instilling Greatness in people living in this world but who are followers of Jesus Christ. With her gracious yet thorough approach in speaking truth, the Greatness Devotional, her first book, offers real life motivation that applies to all women no matter where they are in their walk.